When something dies before it even has a chance to live. Speaking of relationships as it were. It is a wearying thing to have happen over and over and over once again.
But there are certain things you can compromise on, and in any good relationship, for it to succeed, there needs to be a goodly amount of compromise on both sides, but then there are certain things you cannot compromise on if the relationship is to have a chance. Or if you want to maintain your integrity and the essence of who you are.
Would you sacrifice your convictions and morals to see a relationship work? At the very beginning?
The one thing I have learned in this life is that if you do not follow God's rules for relationships, the relationship is doomed. Maybe not doomed to death, but it will never be what it could have been had you just followed His rules. It will be miserable. It will be its own living hell. For how can you live with yourself if you are betraying everything you believe in? It breeds resentment, a relationship like that.
I have done that in the past. I will never do that again. I guess that conviction comes with experience and with a great deal of pain as well. But I will never, ever again place myself into a position where to make a relationship work, I will be choosing between my relationship with Christ Jesus and my relationship with a man. I will be no victim of pressure because the world does not recognize sin as sin or even more importantly, the one you are with won't recognize sin.
Guilt and shame is nothing I want to live with and we ALL have some guilt and shame over something we did in the past. The enemy will never allow you to forget that mistake you made. He will accuse and berate and belittle you. He will try to make you feel worthless.
Been there. Done that. NEVER again.
I am forgiven of my past. By a sacrifice so great and awesome and terrible that it will cover past sins, present sins and even those that I may commit in the future. But God help me, I don't want to do ANYTHING that will nail Him back on the cross. I am weak at times, but I have a choice.
Someday, if God wills, there will be a man who will love you and treat you like the jewel God made you to be. Believe and give Him your heart. Trust Him and He will guard your heart until the time He will give it to that man. God loves you. He wants the best for you. Don't compromise on that.
tenth avenue north
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