I think I do, but I don't.......

I think it hits all of us at some point in time. The problem is..............how do you handle it?

I have spent the majority of my life alone. That is not to be misconstrued as being lonely. I am rarely lonely. My life is too busy for that, however, once in a blue moon, it hits me.

I find myself in a rut of my own making. Putting that nose to the grindstone, one day I look up and realize that my life pattern is something like this;

Go to work.
Go home.

Go to work.
Go home.

And sometimes, I go to work and then? I go home.

There are all the in between things that one does on a farm. Like feed horses, scoop poo, feed chickens, feed dogs, clean house..........the list goes on.

It is times like these that we have to stop and make GOOD decisions. I didn't do that this time. And while I am squirming under this bad decision I turned on the radio to one of my favorite stations.

I listen to a lot of different preachers and teachers of Gods Word on the radio as I travel to and from work. It is my most favorite thing to do. I love learning His precepts and understanding as much as I can about this world. One of my favorite people to listen to is David Hocking. He has a radio ministry called "Hope for Today".

This week David was running a series titled "Making Right Decisions" and at the end of the series, he gave 11 principles to making right decisions and as I listened to these words I realized I really blew it. (Big surprise. I do that often). The principles or questions you should ask when making a decision are the following;

1.    Does it glorify God?
2.    Does cause anyone to stumble?
3.    Does it edify others?
4.    Is your conscience clear?
5.    Does it keep you from doing good?
6.    Does it bring peace?
7.    Does it have the appearance of evil?
8.    Does it bring contentment?
9.    Is it the will of God?
10.  Does it make you a more effective witness for the Lord?
11.  Are you listening to Godly counsel when making this decision?

I think the biggest thing about making a dating site profile is that it just didn't feel right. I am too old fashioned for dating anymore. I was not always like that, but since I truly decided to follow Jesus, I just don't fit in to that anymore. It became apparent right away with the first guy I spoke with. Maybe he didn't think anything of it, but to me, the comment was lewd.

I took that profile down immediately.

And although I am emailing with a guy, it still doesn't feel right. It isn't bringing contentment. And I certainly don't have peace about this. I know it sounds silly, but I truly believe that if I was doing something I ought to be doing, I wouldn't feel this way. I just needed those sermons to validate what I was feeling.

I guess if I am ever blessed enough to have another relationship it will have to be because God dropped that man right in my path. If it happens, I hope that he is so busy chasing Jesus and looking up that we literally smack into one another. If not................Jesus makes a really good husband. He listens really well. He is always by my side. He has promised never to leave me or forsake me.

And He never complains about what I cook for dinner.

David Hocking
Hope for Today
Making Right Decision part 1
Making Right Decisions part 2
Making Right Decisions part 3